I am so annoyed right now. It is 12:02 am and Raj just left my house. This is the same guy I almost gave a blow job to, but had to cancel on last minute.
While talking on the phone about an hour and a half ago, it came up that my parents were not home, and he suggested it a good time to give him that blow job once promised. Yes, this is the same guy that said our need to cancel last minute was an indication that this blow job was never meant to be. Did I mention that he was fickle?
Anyways, he came over and I sucked his dick. I was on my knees for 20 minutes - a marathon BJ... argh, I hate those. He did not come.
WHY?
We're extremely platonic (well except for this, I guess) friends, so it could be that he had a mental block for cumming. When I suggested, since I could not make him cum, that he just jerk off until he did, and he could cum in my mouth if he wanted, he refused, saying he would not feel comfortable doing that. So that could be a reason...
Another very possible reason is that a year (and a little more, actually) has rusted what little skills I had to uselessness... Great... now I am going to have performance anxiety every time I give a BJ. Goddamn... I COULD NOT MAKE A VIRGIN COME FROM A BJ.
Can life get any worse?
I think I need BJ giving tips... I honestly feel like maybe I am not doing it right.
He said it felt really good... which is what they all say... yet he did not have an orgasm.
Are there any tips out there? How do I make a guy come without skinning my knees? And do not give suggestions like stick a finger up his arse - I've had bad experiences with that... God, this is so fucking embarrassing... I feel like I'm 17 again.. And my 21st birthday is less than a month away.
It's kinda funny though. Yesterday I was fuming, trying to reason with Nar about his unreasonable belief in horoscopes. After I realised my efforts were futile, and told him never to bring up horoscopes again, he joked about it, struggled for a couple of minutes to find something else to talk about (with absolutely no help from me), and then quickly promised to call me on Friday about going out on the weekend, before hanging up.
Friday ended 5 minutes ago, and he has not called. And I did not call him. Instead, I was content to spend the last few minutes of Friday night with some other guy's penis in my mouth. Should I call Nar and tell him about this? That would be an interesting conversation to say the least. I do not feel guilty though - it's not like I'm his girlfriend and cheated on him.
"Is oral sex adultery? Yes! There is no discussion! If curling is an olympic sport, then oral sex is adultry. And oral sex should be an olympic sport because it's more difficult than curling and if you're any good at it, you deserve a medal!" - Lewis Black, Comedian
I just called Raj to make sure he was safely on his way home (he is), but since he could not hear me much with the maxi (a larger version of a taxi) blasting music, he called me back later.
I asked if he thought it was worth it to travel all the way up to Laventille (read: the Harlem of Trinidad) for the BJ, and he said yes, though I am not sure if it's because the BJ did actually feel good, or if he took pleasure in "triumphing" over me, virginity and all. I think the latter, and if not, both.
I also enquired after a repeat. He said he was willing.
I need to watch Blow Jobs Gone Wild Again, because I'll be damned if I don't get a medal when the Olympics rolls around next 4 years (though in Blow Job years, that could very well be next week).